It's testosterone and youth. It's foolishness, you are right.
[Snorting, she almost spat out an oath at the prospect of Hiro actually using that brain. Right now she's angry, she's ready to chew iron and spit nails. And she knows that. Ami's words help calm her down just a bit, and her fist unclenched, rubbing her jaw as her feet slowed to a stop. A channel, calm. Calm is what she needed right now. Because while Hiro was being stupid, he was still going to need to do better in the future. That thought startled her.
The realization that she cared enough to want him to improve was vastly different than the reaction she ordinarily would have for an idiotic man. She's still angry. She's still mad. But that energy can be constructive.]
You want to show him just we're capable of? You think he'll pay attention to that, really? I mean, we can certainly try, and there might be some catharsis in it. He promised he'd talk to me before doing these dangerous things, and that's a breach of my trust. I...[She looks at Ami, helpless in a way.] you know how that is for me. I want him safe, I want him to improve and be...better than stupid shit like this. But lying to me?
[That's a stinger right there, and she deflated a little, obviously hurt by it. Her eyes snapped back up to Ami's at the suggestion, and she shook her head sharply.]
No. [Her answer came perhaps a little too quickly. She'd thought about it too, and she was not ready. At all.] Not yet. Not for any extended period of time. I'm not ready. I'm...not...really sure I'd be more than a liability for an extended trek, and I refuse to let the two of you go without me. You'll need me, and I just...after what happened to the last group, we need to be more cautious and better prepared.
[A sigh and she slumps forward, the anger simmering for a moment as worry takes hold.]
And I'm not there yet. Maybe in another few weeks.
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[Snorting, she almost spat out an oath at the prospect of Hiro actually using that brain. Right now she's angry, she's ready to chew iron and spit nails. And she knows that. Ami's words help calm her down just a bit, and her fist unclenched, rubbing her jaw as her feet slowed to a stop. A channel, calm. Calm is what she needed right now. Because while Hiro was being stupid, he was still going to need to do better in the future. That thought startled her.
The realization that she cared enough to want him to improve was vastly different than the reaction she ordinarily would have for an idiotic man. She's still angry. She's still mad. But that energy can be constructive.]
You want to show him just we're capable of? You think he'll pay attention to that, really? I mean, we can certainly try, and there might be some catharsis in it. He promised he'd talk to me before doing these dangerous things, and that's a breach of my trust. I...[She looks at Ami, helpless in a way.] you know how that is for me. I want him safe, I want him to improve and be...better than stupid shit like this. But lying to me?
[That's a stinger right there, and she deflated a little, obviously hurt by it. Her eyes snapped back up to Ami's at the suggestion, and she shook her head sharply.]
No. [Her answer came perhaps a little too quickly. She'd thought about it too, and she was not ready. At all.] Not yet. Not for any extended period of time. I'm not ready. I'm...not...really sure I'd be more than a liability for an extended trek, and I refuse to let the two of you go without me. You'll need me, and I just...after what happened to the last group, we need to be more cautious and better prepared.
[A sigh and she slumps forward, the anger simmering for a moment as worry takes hold.]
And I'm not there yet. Maybe in another few weeks.